So many of you have emailed or reached out through social sites to check on me and I truly appreciate it. I have been missing in action on my blog, Instagram, Snapchat and facebook. I truly apologize to those who support and look forward to reading my posts and are genuinely interested in my life and well-being. Well, the reason is I have been completely overwhelmed with everything going on in life and i just needed a break from it all.
So many things have happened back to back. Well, most of you know I own my own construction company with my husband. We are a small, tight knit company and everyone has pretty much become family (not by blood but by choice & loyalty). So, when I’m forced to make an executive decision to let someone go it (deeply?) affects me emotionally. I always want the best for people but sometimes people take advantage of my kindness and when that happens obviously I must pick up the slack. During all this, it is beginning to feel like winter in Florida and all us spoonie’s know how hard winter can be on our bodies. As usual I push through, deal with it and pay the consequence. Thankfully a friend recommended someone for the job and that saved me hours and hours of the hiring process. Whew, that was totally God in control and answering my prayers. Ok, so I’m dealing with winter weather, my first flares of the season, training a new employee, still doing my job with family in town that I need to try to entertain or just spend time with.
Thankfully, my mother in law and my mother were in town for about a month during this craziness. They arrived end of November and left the third week of December. This totally saved my ass. They have helped me so much by handling the house chores and cooking while I was working late hours on the days I was able to get up from bed. Also, I’ve caught some serious flares through this time and I believe that the cold front that came into Orlando was the trigger. I’ve experienced the worst pain ever on my feet. I had episodes of frozen feet, they looked pale and slightly bluish, pins & needles as if my feet were sitting in ice but my feet were sweating at the same time. Crazy right?? Well I could barely walk because I didn’t feel my feet and was holding on to my mom or the walls to get to the bathroom. It was excruciating and scary because I didn’t know what was happening. Well apparently, it is a neurological condition call “Peripheral neuropathy”. During all this my hands were acting up as well, they were tingling, and I couldn’t bend my left wrist without feeling this strong shocking nerve pain through my hand and arm. Come to find out it can all be related to this condition. So, Now I have to go get tested to verify if I have a new neurological condition or is it that my fibromyalgia is progressing. Either way, it sucks and I’m NOT happy about it. 🙁
Now mind you, I always host Thanksgiving in my house and New Years Eve in my home. Through all that I’m trying to do Christmas shopping for my family & friends, preparing for the parties, shopping for the food, cooking the food and, spending time with my mother & mother in law. To put it as simple as possible, I was OVERWHELMED!
I’ve notice when I am overwhelmed that I just completely shut down. Mentally and physically. My flares start to take over and I’m just done with everything. I actually considered closing down my blog at one point. But, I took a second (well days not a second lol) and realized this is my release, this is how I cope. So many of you reached out asking on what’s going on and that made me realize that I need to keep going because my spooine family and my followers need me. I need to tell my story and my journey because others can learn from my experience with fibromyalgia. I always try to keep a positive outlook on life and focus on love & what’s important in life but, I’m human and I fall sometimes. Sometimes I stay down longer than normal but the important part is I always get up and I keep going!! I wipe the dirt off my shoulders, I wipe the tears from my face and continue on trying to help others cope and live with fibro. It’s not easy and it’s definitely not for wimps, only the strong survive.
So that’s the madness that was going on in my life these past two months and I haven’t been able to focus on creating for you guys.
2018 is looking bright and I’m looking forward to the changes that are coming. Thanks for the love and support!
I hope you all have a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year with your family & friends. I will be taking this time to be present, enjoy my loved ones and create lots of memories despite the pain I feel, I hope you all so the same. 🙂
Gentle hugs, love & light,
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